One quiet morning at 5.30 a.m. in April 2024, after dropping my daughter off at basketball practice, with Bulla ki jaana mein kaun playing in the background, I felt a sudden urge to sketch. I rushed home and dumped all my thoughts on paper in a scratchy format, just like they appeared in my head.
It was a spontaneous outpouring of thoughts that had been brewing for a while. These sketches are very personal and dear to me.
We are born whole — blank slates.
But early on, society teaches us to highlight our "positive" traits and hide our "flaws." We begin to divide ourselves — the accepted visible side, and the hidden side.
We are appreciated for showing only the "good" side. And shamed for revealing the vulnerable or flawed side.
So we learn to perform. We present a polished persona and bury parts of ourselves.
Over time, this image becomes our default identity. We seek situations that reinforce it and avoid ones that threaten it.
We become addicted to external validation — achievements, praise, status. But something always feels hollow.
Though we appear successful or admired, we feel like imposters. We live in fear of being "found out."
We chase more validation, but never feel enough. The cost? Peace, authenticity, joy.
When life hits — failure, loss, disillusionment — the mask cracks. We panic.
But beneath the fear is a quiet truth: we've been running from ourselves.
If we're brave, we begin to introspect. We realize we've been performing for love, for belonging. And that our flaws, fears, and insecurities — are part of us too.
We stop hiding. This is the beginning of awareness.
We start embracing both sides. We own our insecurities. We don't need constant praise. We become comfortable being fully seen — even with flaws.
We stop needing to prove our worth.
But now what? If we no longer chase status or perform for others… what is our purpose?
The journey turns inward again — this time, deeper.
There's no grand purpose but being fully alive.
Peace isn't found in external things — it comes from inner wholeness.
We don't need to perform, prove, or chase. We are free to just be.
Now, we live lighter. We enjoy things without needing them to define us. We act from joy, curiosity, and need — not validation.
We pursue meaning on our terms. We are whole, honest, and free.